Goals for 2017
YOLO! NEW YEAR NEW ME! #blessed
I know, I am over a month late for "new year new me". And let's be honest. That whole concept is total bullshit and I am so sick of hearing it. I cringed as I typed the header to this post.
All of those exclamations of a new life on January 1 and how you will be TOTALLY different this year are mostly bogus. You are probably going to be the same person you were last year. I especially think this if you have waited to January 1st to promise yourself for this change. You have a choice everyday to make a change. I know that this idea of resolutions and new beginnings is attractive to some and if it works for you, then I guess I can't really talk too much crap. But I think we can agree the majority of people lose their resolutions fairly quickly.
But I digress.
2016 was undoubtedly one of the hardest years of my life. My lifelong struggle with anxiety escalated from a tightness in my chest to full out panic attacks, vomiting, and blackouts. My father had a massive heart attack in March and it is a miracle that he survived though the image of him hooked up to a breathing machine haunts me everyday. I discovered that my dream of working in aviation wasn't satisfying me in the way I had thought it would. My studies were no longer enjoyable and I landed in a huge depression.
I have since grown from these experiences-I know more of who I am now, I am more confident and sure of myself. I am also on life-changing anxiety meds. It is still something I deal with but I truly believed it saved my life. My father, after a few rough months, is doing better than he has been for a very long time. Though there have been struggles in my growth-I have found I outgrew the small farm town I was raised in and realized many of my friends were not genuine-I am thankful for this tough and formative time in my life.
I am, however, still not where I want to be. I still work in aviation where I drag myself to a carpet cube every morning and my life doesn't truly begin until I clock out at 3:30. There are so many things I want to do besides work at a desk for the rest of my life so I will use 2017 to prepare.
1. Further develop my writing/editing portfolio
I have brought in a sizable chunk of my income through freelance writing and editing. I use Upwork for most of it since I have good ratings and job history on there. It can be hard to land ongoing gigs but I think I may have a couple. I have been working on a portfolio website and though it is just in the very beginning stages, I really see how this will help me. I hope that I can eventually support myself-or at least significantly supplement my income-through these gigs.
2. Become certified in German
If you haven't noticed, I love languages. Like. A lot. I am comfortable speaking in German but I want to enroll in a CEFR course so that I can earn my certification. This will be great to add to my professional portfolio but it will also allow me to get a work visa in countries like Austria and Germany where this language certification is required.
3. Commit to being an Au Pair
Hence my reason for wanting to become certified in German. I had toyed with this idea earlier this year and was discouraged. I received a lot of messages from interesting families that I adored but...the whole full time job/responsibilities thing killed that idea. After a few tears, I deleted my profile until I could commit. I didn't want to get families' hopes up. This may not happen until much later this year but I want to take the steps to get there.
4. Land a completely remote job
I'm not sure if the freelance writer life is for me. It can be stressful and clients can be difficult. I enjoy writing, but not as much when it is for other people. I will continue to do so as it has significantly supplemented my income but I am on the search for remote jobs.
There are so many completely virtual companies out there now so HOPEFULLY this won't be too hard. Hopefully...
5. Study HTML, CSS, Webdesign...etc
So, I know a bit. But seeing as I have my own website, I figure it is a good idea to REALLY know what I am doing. Sometimes I feel like I am one click or one wrong code away from breaking the whole damn thing.
This is a short list and none of it is that wishy-washy hipster crap so I'm sorry if that is what you came here looking for. But if it was, I'm sorry but you have the wrong kind of website.
Here is to conquering 2017.
Have you guys had these struggles or conflicts in your life? How did you deal with them?
Ok you caught me. I love Star Trek and the occasional llama.